I close my eyes, hoping to see the happy moments,
But tears run down my cheek as I search my mind in vain,
I've lost all of you, no image left,
This heart of mine will continue to burn,
My life has seized to be, my soul leaving me behind,
What I had wished for, and what I have attained,
Society mocks me double fold, first I lost you,
Now I lost myself,
How many nights you went to bed sad, the cause was me,
Forgive me not for I cannot be forgiven,
I took an angel and tore its wings apart,
God's gift I have ruined, he has no empathy for me,
Wailing internally, forever persisting,
This sickness has no cure,
The waking hours are flooded with tears,
And at night, my dreams leave my side,
My desire to undo this pain can't match
My nature to break your heart in the first place,
Life of solitude, behind many masks,
Poems of mine will record lessons learned,
Without asking the questions, I know my crime,
Etched in the minds of society the greatest sin,
A broken heart is what I live to mend,
Spending the rest of my years waiting for death,
In a flash of anger, I stole a smile of gold,
What weighs my mind is the capacity of my greed,
Each smile that I've stolen is worth each year of my life,
If I could disown myself, that would be in my favor,
When I close my eyes tonight, I relive the same pain,
The horror of my actions, praying for redemption,
Choosing not to listen, we pay for a lifetime,
Away from each other in this lifetime and the next…
