The laughing stops
and the tears start to fall
I finally got the number to God
so I gave him a call
its over now I知 telling you
I don't care what you do
I致e found someone who really cares
so life with you is through
its over now
and now I知 calling it quits
no more abuse from you
and no more painful licks
God has promised me
I値l be happy and he'll never let me down
so I知 telling you before I go
its finally over now
I found out God knew all along
about the things you did
God saw it when it all started
when I was just a kid
now I lie here on this table
bleeding from my wounds
God promised me my pain would stop
it would all be over soon
so I closed my eyes and took a deep breath
as God lifted my head
he leaned over, with a soft whisper
and this is what he said
Sleep Now, Don't Worry
Revenge Is Mine I'll Get Him Back
He Will Soon Learn A Valueable Lesson
You Don't Touch A Child Of Mine Like That
I'm The One Who Will Decide
What His Punishment Will Be
He Can't Take That So I'll Teach Him
You Don't Mess With Me
He'll Know What It Feels Like
I'll Whip Him Cause He's Mine
I smiled before my final breath
followed by silence and a flat line
so you see dad it over now
and you can't handle the pain
you pulled the trigger on yourself
and things will never be the same
this isn't what was in store for you
the way that you should go
but since you did it, God's got an idea
I thought that you should know
you found yourself in my position
bleeding on that same table
bleeding from the head, you should have died
but you wonder why you're not able
you see God promised me he would get you
for hurting a child of his
you made the choice you chose the path
and this is how it is
GOD didn't let u bleed to long
and die on the operating table
your punishment from him, for hurting me
is you'll be alive but also disable
your limbs you used so freely
your arms and legs you took for granite
those same arms and legs you used to hurt me
God simply wasn't having it
Dad, it wasn't my fault my mother left you
you see she left me too
I was only a kid who didn't understand
what it was you expected me to do
the one thing I had those lonely nights
was the comfort of my kittens purr
you even took that from me, started to abuse me
because my mother.... well I look like her
she was my mother and she taught me well
the little time you let her stay around
if only she could have held herself together
those times you kept her down.
God showed me what you did to her
it seem you spent a lot of time pissed
I know if my mother was still around
I wouldn't have ended up like this
this may sound strange for a child to say
but you really have no clue.
I知 glad I was there instead of her
or else she would be dead too
you made her leave by being so mean
late at night I would hear her cry
you were too damn mean and out of control
and I never told my mother goodbye
I知 sorry it had to be like this
for you to clearly understand
but I was only a kid having fun
trying to live the best I can
I pretty much raised myself
you were never around
when you were, you were always down
you beat me 奏il my smile was a frown
so you see dad I was only 3, when the abuse started
and now I'm dead at the age of 8
by the time my mother found out about me
she was a few years to late
I don't blame her for leaving me
she tried, but you wouldn't let her help
she walked away leaving me behind
not knowing you'd harm my health
and just incase you're wondering why you're reading this
long after I致e been gone
I tried to reach you through my prayers
but you never heard my song
but its funny how you now know
about all the things you've done
nothing could compare to this
I thought I was number 1
its over now, its said and done
so I値l leave you alone
but I値l be waiting to see you again
when God calls you home
there is one more thing I have to say
and this I must say too
I知 going to go and rest in peace
I forgive, love and miss you
but maybe when we meet again
you can explain to me why
I want to know how you could hit me
until I could no longer cry
I知 only one of many statistics
and my tragic death a shame
but I write this for abused children
face by face and name by name
dad I started writing this when I was 6
God told me I would die at eight
so I started to put this on paper
before it got to late
I also wrote it to remind you
of all the things you did
how you hurt me and took me from the world
and I was only a kid
I can still see the night GOD came to me
and the angels God put beside my bed
I was only 6 years old
and this is what GOD said
You're My Child And I Love You So
But I Have Some Good And Bad News
The Good News Is I'll Be Back For You
This Will All Be Over Soon
The BAd News Is, Yet Its Good
To Say This To You IS Even Harder
But One Week After Your Eighth Birthday
You'll Die By The Hands Of Your Earthly Father
But I'll Place Angels At Your Bed Side
They Will Be There Everyday
So When You Feel Your Breath Getting Shorter
You'll Know That Its OK
see I was in good hands all along
not wondering where I was going from here
but only those hands could ease the pain
and help me understand you really did care
but sometimes I want to cry
the bad memories haunt me and I pout
then I remember all the tears I cried for you
and I realize, I知 all cried out
so help me if you can
help me would you please
tell me why you hurt me
so a little of my pain can ease
God has already shown me
but I need to hear it from you
for once get on your knees
and tell your child the truth
God is keeping this in my head
dad answer your phone when it rings
it will only take one time
to see others going through the same thing
the one thing I was afraid of
the one thing I was afraid to see
its hard for me to believe
there r other kids just like me
I never got to grow up
experience what the world had for me
all of that was taken
when you started to beat me
imagine being beaten
body bruised, flesh torn
imagine being told
at 8 years old, the whole world will morn
you don't understand
I had plans you shattered my dreams
1 was to run my mother away
by you being so mean
I知 not trying to hurt you
the way you hurt me
I just want you to look into my eyes
and tell me what you see
you should see a frighten little girl
waiting to escape, run and hide
a little girl to young to go anywhere
so I took the abuse and cried
how does it feel
having this on your hands
I hope you live to see the day
all abused children take a stand
remember dad
you served no time for this crime
it frighten you when GOD said
You Belong To These Hands Of Mine
you tried to play crazy
after all the lives you ruined
God was watching you
and your punishment was already brewing
now its getting through to you
things are getting hot
your start to wonder how
with no flame under the pot
well dad its easy
have someone roll you to the mirror
look pass the image of yourself
so that you can see me more clear
I知 standing there in white
no I don't have wings
I was this same angel with you
as hard as if may have seemed
its okay dad
its okay to cry
I wish I was there to wipe your tears
its hard when I never said goodbye
though I致e been gone for a while
I saw it all, when my mother found out what you did
she couldn't gather her thoughts together
as to how you could harm you own kid
she still feels its her fault
she feels she should have been there to stop you
but God and I had already talked about it
there was nothing she could do
now she stands over my grave
piercing pain buried in her heart
feeling like any mother would
I should have done my part
she feels like she should have stayed
taken the abuse too
but my death wasn't because she left
u didn't pay attention, when God was talking to you
do you see now
I知 not the only one you've hurt
do you see the pain friends and family feel
as I lay 6 feet covered in dirt
but that's just my body they covered
my soul is in a better place
I知 sure we'll meet again
when you explain why, face to face
because if I only had one wish
that one wish would be
before you go wherever God sends you
to let you stop by here and see me
then you can go and be judged for you life
and this cruel, cruel act
besides the bad you've done to me
I hope the rest of you life was intact
if there is something you want to do for me
publish this through my eye's, show the world what you did
but most of all, help me
save the life of another abused kid
there are so many just like me
and they too need help
please don't let another child
fell the pain I felt
dad, there is something else
you may not think I knew
its something else you got away with
because people were blind to the truth
you got away from the law
you covered your tracks that time
dad, I was there, I saw what you did
when you killed that step brother of mine
you made it look like an accident
and the court bought what you said
but I was there, I saw it all
even when you struck him in the head
what you did to him
dad it was a shame
and for what, of course you know
it was over a silly child痴 card game
I didn't get to tell my story
the things I saw that day
they wouldn't put a child on the witness stand
so that day you got away
but God saw then too
and you hurt GOD so bad
you didn't listen to GOD then
but by now you wish you had
so two kids are dead
both by the hands of you
you would have been punished by law
if she wasn't so blind to the truth
if her actions were taken then
the first time she got the call
do you think kids would die this way
I don't think so, not at all
I can only say
GOD didn't plan for you to go to jail
I really don't know what GOD has for you
wether it be Heaven or weather it be Hell
GOD did say this though
I hope it gets your attention
and don't just hear what GOD is saying
this time you had better listen
Oneday I'll Come Back For You
You Won't Know The Time Nor Will You Know The Hour
But I Will Teach You One Thing
You Don't Over Ride My Power
Thos Lives You Have Taken Away
They're Both In Good Hands
However, What You Did To Them
Won't Compare To What For You I Have Planned
This Is Only To Teach You A Lesson
Like Them You're My Child Too
So Its Best You Start Confessing
You Owe Me An Apology, You've Caused Me Pain Too
Now You Want To Pay Attention
And I'm Not Even Close To Being Through With You
I'm The Father, You're The Child
One Way Or Another, YOu'll Stay In A Childs Place
I Gave You Chances To Get It Right
And You Let Them Go To Waste
Don't Think This Is Easy For Me
I Didn't Think You Would Run So Wild
Whipping Your Child Til They Could No Longer Cry
Isn't What I Meant By Spare The Rod Spoil The Child.
I'm Hurt By The Way My Children Are Raising The Blessings I Gave
Thats Not How It Should Be
I Gave My Only Sone To The Dying World
And You Still Didn't Believe In Me
What More Do I Have To Do
To Get Others Like You To Listen
Maybe Through The Mouths Of Babes
They Will Finally Pay Attention
There Is One Thing You May Consider Doing
Before you Close Your Eyes Tonite
After All This You Tell Them
If They Are Living Their Lives Like I Don't Exist
They Had Better Be Right!
Signed: Asia
From: HEAVEN
