Fear #1

Love comes banging at my door,
What should I do?
Should I answer it, invite it in?
My palms have frozen in fear,
So I run away,
My heart is beating to a rhythmic tone of death,
As the door is opened, I see hope,
I see paradise, a new beginning, the chance to have it all,
But why do I fear it?
What causes this emotion to rise above all others?
I shall slay this fearless dragon,
Or so as it seemed at the time,
The fear rises as it strikes me with every blow I attempt,
Who is winning only time tells?
I am getting weaker by the second,
The wrath of this dragon is what I shall feel again,
This cycle continues as I fight it once more,
Do I see no hope, no recovery, and no new routes?
My mind is lost in the matrix of choices,
Should I accept the invitation and go on forth?
Or shall I stay back and drown in apathy?
The time is now to act if I must,
Leaving earth and onto hell is the only way I can escape the dragon,
For in hell I feel at home, apathy is the ruler there,
The fear has done this to me,
My very essence is lost,
I shall spend the rest of eternity sobbing in my sorrows in a loveless heart withering tnothing,
For I have lost the opportunity once more,
Opportunity such as these strikes once in lifetime, twice if you get lucky.

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