Now I've been struggling in this life
For the past twenty five,
I feel as I am about to die,
Thought of suicide many times,
But could not pull the trigger,
Who would take care of her? Go figure,
Think of me as being greedy, ending it too soon,
But if you walked my path, you be doing the same,
Thinking the same thoughts, and going insane,
Will I ever make it out of here and be free?
Grab me tight, and shake this nightmare off,
As I finish the last of the blunt,
Scoffed up are my dreams and the demons,
Reaching my soul and sipping through my veins,
Got me thinking crazy things, as I kept smiling,
This ain't the path I chose to walk on,
But my legs kept going, chasing dreams,
All the while, Lord is telling me hang on.
