Didn't See It Coming

Awe Gnaw, I don’t believe this shit
Woke up this morning found some keys in my bed
Found a note under the pillow where she use 2 lay her head
At the foot of the bed found her teddy, her favorite color red
Opened the letter to take a peek this is what she said
(I can’t keep doing this everyday it’s the same thing
I don’t know where I’ve read it, but this isn’t how it should be
All I asked was when I needed it you were there for me to hold
Like a bad hand in poker be4 I could go all in, u have force me 2 fold
She said I always thought the way I was feeling would get better
But as long as u stayed the same, refusing not 2 change
Super glue couldn’t have held us together)
It said " I’m tired of this, I need time 2 think"
So I went to the bathroom turned on the water
And let that shit run down the sink
I loved you the letter said, but the way I started feeling wasn’t fair
You can say whatever you want about me, I really did care
I tried everything to keep it from reaching the point of disaster
But everything I seemed to try, you ignored it with laughter
That family you wanted, I wanted it too, if only you would have seen
While you were out chasing your dream
I was living a life from an unreal movie scene

I stopped reading and thought 2 myself, I never asked her for anything
Except 4 patience to what I was trying to do
Because in the end when I was done
She was to reap the benefits too
I guess if she couldn’t stand by me now
She wasn’t willing to then
But when I make to the Big Time
She’ll want to be my girlfriend again
Its good it happened now
Before I asked her for her hand
Because pulling this shit after we were married and had 2 give her half
I would have hurt her, yall just don’t understand
I don’t need a woman like her
I need one that’s down for the ride
Someone to have my back
Like Bonnie had the back of Clyde
It had crossed my mind to break ground and start running
But she beat me to the track and I never saw it coming

I figured she’ll be back. She’s done this before
Never could stay gone for long
I kept waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting
The girl never came back home
I was in denial I pretended not to let it bother me
I didn’t even want to show I once even cared
But after 5 years of being together
I wondered if she was ever even there
I finally came to my senses
And realized this wasn’t all my fault
I’ll admit I could have done some things different
But this was a lesson well taught
No matter how much you think you need a person
Or how much about them you think you know
There come a time in everyone’s life
Facing the reality of letting go
Sure it’s going to hurt
You had feelings and this person you once loved
But what good were they really
If they left before the blessing came from above
This we know nothing last forever
All good things must come to an end
Beside she wasn’t your wife, or a full time lover
She was just a replaceable girlfriend

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