Listen to me tell you how it really went down,
You think I never loved you,
The days I would wake up early,
So that you can come over even for a short while,
Thought about twice before I bought myself a snack,
I wanted to save some cash, and give you a gift,
The days I was offered over time,
Said No, did not think twice,
Thought about being with you all the time,
I was afraid that you loved me,
Came so close, that I did not believe,
I was going through some rough times,
Barely making enough to support two,
Couldn't think of making you my wife,
You couldn't see that, could you?
What was my plan?
To leave you, and let you have a better future,
I could see in your eyes, when you talked about him-
Your old fling,
Night and day I thought about how he is right,
Even though I rather have you with me each night,
Why did I wait till the end to cry the tears?
I had to make you believe that I wasn't right,
You would be better with some other men,
Who could give you all your need and desire,
But you wanted love, someone to share that with,
Sorry I did not dealt you that quite right,
To this day, the days I heard you cry,
I shake with fear, and my eyes are not left dry,
In my heart, you will forever be present,
Memories may fade, and time will move forward,
But I am stuck in the past, not letting go,
You all hear?
What we wanted and what do we have?
So different became our paths,
You were good for me,
Many have told me this, and I knew they were right,
But I knew the cost you might pay,
To be with for a lifetime,
Lose your family and even you friends,
Can't have that on my conscience,
When I did not even have a full time job,
I know you can never forgive me for my crimes,
But the lord knows I have done my time.
